My Wife Journal #7

05/22/2023 @ 5:45 p.m.

 

 

 

            Since my last journal so much has taken place. God has been revealing to me those who believe in Him but are easily deceived that I have been associated with. I always knew that I could not take slim to any one along this journey just because of how many do not have enough keen discernment to understand the tactics of the enemy and know how to combat against such when certain things arise. I am super thankful for the opportunity of growth in this season to understand who and what I need to do in the moment of adversity. Which seems to be a roller coaster ride for me for the last few years. So, I have understood it to be a fast tracking for me because of the state of the church that most are in and don’t realize it. I have had to do some things where I’ve had to ask for forgiveness on multiple occasions because of course I am not perfect. But in reality, I realized that it’s all been working out in God’s glory when it comes to my life.

            My life story definitely does not look like anyone else’s, and I’m sure a lot can say the same thing, however, this calling that I have on my life has shown me that hate does exist, and in most cases usually toward those that truly have the anointing within them. I have found that being in a place where I am solely dependent on God is what matters most, no matter what man may say or run and tell the next person, because of course like stated earlier, people will be easily deceived instead of finding the truth within the lie. During these few weeks, God showed me more than what I wanted to know, but I did ask for the enemy and those that don’t need to be around me to be exposed. And then I went on a deleting and block spree. Lol!! One of which I had no clue, but anybody will do anything to make sure their family is covered. This person in particular, of course I forgive but will never forget, but it will allow me to know where this person will be placed in my life going forward. The others I, of course, have had to cut off completely because they no longer serve any purpose in my life, especially when gossip encamps their lives. Do I forgive? Absolutely! Will I forget? No, not at all. Will I allow them in my circle again? Absolutely Not! See, God says to forgive but don’t be a fool. I have at this point, chosen to remove myself from gossip, instead of prayer. I have chosen to remove myself from lies mixed with truth, and decided to make sure that whomever I surround myself around lines up with the same if not more of a calling on their life as myself.  The reason for this, is because the enemy is out to divide and conquer through people, which means we have to always be wise in who we choose to associate ourselves with. And furthermore, this had to be done in order for me to know that when I move in my true calling that no one who called themselves to be loyal to me, will interfere with what God is doing in my life, because they now see the fruits of my labor coming into existence.

 

            I’m choosing to write about this today, because I know that a true breakthrough is at my doorstep, and there is no one that will be able to stop what God is about to do in my life. But of course, he had to give everyone a reason to tune into my life, and what better way to do it, than to allow the enemy to spread terrible lies about me amongst those that at one point supported me, and now help the enemy in trying to continue to set me up. And the biggest part about this is that no one even knows I know, because technically I am not supposed to even know what has been going on. But when you serve a God that has been preparing you before hand on what is to come, you move gracefully with an understanding that God has it all worked out.

            Even in the midst of the enemy using those near and dear to my heart, have had to turn around and bless me and make sure everything remains lined up with what God has told me to do. Most times I don’t understand why God has told me to do certain things, but when the situation presents itself as to why I ended up doing things the way I did, then that further helps me to understand how good God really is. I just follow directions and allow God to be the center of my life, and don’t acknowledge those around me, especially those that are against me, and to those that have been for a while. It’s amazing what you can do with the dark web, and technology, but at the end of it all, God’s word is firm. My prayer though, is that anyone that did not have enough discernment to understand the tactics of the enemy when involving me, comes to the realization very quickly because your life counts on it. And for those that have come against me for no reason at all, or if you had a reason, I hope that you repent before it is too late, because again your eternal resting place counts on it. I have no love lost for anyone, in fact I will still hold a conversation with anyone that wished bad on me, however, I will not ever give you another moment to think that you will continue to do as such by allowing you to linger on in my space.

 

            So, in all honesty I needed this to be exposed, so that in turn, I can truly move on with my life, because who wants to bring a heaviness into a marriage? Not me!!! So, I am truly thankful for the exposure of the enemy, because this just means judgment is now at their front door, and now I can finally close this chapter of my life where there is now therefore, no condemnation for those who are in Christ Jesus. And for that reason, I can sleep well at night. And to my enemies, thank you, because blessings always come after the attack. I’m just thankful that my husband doesn’t have to be a witness to all of this hate.

 

 

Signed

Your wife