My Wife Journal #6

05/03/2023 @ 9:22 p.m.

 

          Hope all is well today. For me it’s been a day full of thanksgiving and praise because I am just in the Lord’s ambiance still. I have been finding myself letting go of things from the past such as old contacts in my phone, deleting my social media profile that is in my past and deleting pictures. All these things have one thing in common. It no longer serves me any purpose. And honestly, it wasn’t hard to delete these things because I have detached from this life a long time ago. However, I do feel like my old social page has been holding back from going forward with ministry work. It says in the bible that Jesus had to leave from where he is known to do ministry and that is how I feel, because people who know the old you are not receptive to this newfound you. Which I have noticed. Lol! I get it through; you can’t stay stuck in old habits including lifestyles. Not to say that Jesus sinned or lived a lifestyle like we as sinner have, but its just one of those things where strangers gravitate more toward you. But what I found is that some of these people from my past found me where I went, and thought would be just a new thing and started following me. It’s not a bad thing, just hope that they really learn and not just there to be an on looker. I would say that is my prayer in that. I think that it’s been time for this to delete old ways and continue to move forward with my walk-in purity and not let anything hold me back in any way. Trust me, things like this have a way of holding you back. Certain things can continue to leave gateways open in your life, so I decided to just get rid of anything that could hinder me in my walk. So I went from about 225 contacts to 105 and could probably still delete a few more. But I think my last step is to delete old text messages and the remaining pictures I have. I also feel that this is beneficial to me walking in a WIFE mindset as well. My thing is that I don’t want to bring anything, any baggage, anything that could taint my ministry with my husband. Yes, being married is a ministry as well.

          All in all, I feel relieved every time I do release things from my past. It makes life lighter lol.

          Besides that, I am getting ready to go into part 2 of my first teaching. I have been seeking the Lord on how this needs to be presented and I am still not sure. So, when I know, I will start putting arrangements together to get this teaching out. What God showed me is that this ministry will be bases on preparing the church for the last days. Which is exactly where we are at. I can not deny the fact that this is a tough position to be in, because the enemy has tried to keep my mouth shut since I was little, but the more I grow in the Lord I find that the strength of God and support keeps me pressing forward. I take refuge in the calmness of the storm and the word of God because honestly that is the most powerful and safest source we can lean on and should be our only source.

 

Signed,

Your Wife